You Are Never Off Your Path

[vc_row][vc_column][mk_dropcaps style=”fancy-style” size=”50″ padding=”20″ background_color=”#e8e8e8″ text_color=”#4d4d4d”]I[/mk_dropcaps][vc_column_text p_margin_bottom=”20″ width=”1/1″ el_position=”first last”]t was nearly 1 AM early Sunday morning and I was just beginning the drive home from the Cities to Fargo. My return home had been smooth thus far, having begun at 11am Saturday when we unwound altars, said closing prayers and made an offering to Mama Ocean. Flights on time, not too much turbulence. And now the drive home. I didn’t quite trust my tired visual faculties by then so I turned on the GPS to guide me.  I was getting into my driving groove when the GPS voice advised me, “Hazard ahead. You are still on the fastest route.” A cascade of worried thoughts gripped my brain as I imagined detours, car accidents, and not arriving home until sometime next Tuesday. However as I kept driving, nothing appeared. The road was totally open.  Perhaps 20 minutes later, the very same scenario played out:the alert, then MY inner alarm bells and then the failure of any hazard to appear.  Then another 30 minutes went by. This time, the warning came by flashing lights fixed to orange construction barrels: Detour Ahead. And yet again, no detour manifested in my path. All was wide open and accessible. If you can believe it, that afternoon when I went off to get groceries, the very same thing occurred: blinking signs telling me I was about to be rerouted and presumably inconvenienced but only open pathways. You might be thinking by this point I would be tuning in to this very consistent Universal communication. Yet it wasn’t until I was at the end of my Journey Meditation on Sunday night that Spirit made a point to let me know, in no uncertain terms, that these were messages that I needed to pay attention to.They were the outer manifestation of a way of relating to life that I had outgrown. Namely, that I was going on my way, walking my path, unconsciously anticipating obstacles, hardships and burdens. And every single time, Spirit opened the way for me. Every. Single. Time. In physical reality, those notifications and signs were not consistent with what was actually true. It caused me to wonder how many times I had felt the anxiety rise up as a ball in my belly, causing me to turn back from possibility, because I was so certain I saw a sign that was warning me my whole journey was fucked if I proceeded. Joseph Campbell once said, “The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure that you seek.” I invite you to allow that wisdom to be the torch that lights your way, to let its brightness light all the dim places behind your eyes and to clear the imprinted doubts that weight your heart. In spiritual circles there can be this talk of how, “I’m so off my path.” or, “It’s taken me a long time to get back on my path.” This sentiment can also manifest in more coarse terms as, “I just need to get my shit together.” or “When is he going to get his shit together!?!?” I extend another invitation: let’s throw these worn out paradigms in the Holy Fire right now. And once that surface layer of doubt and fear has been transmuted, we can peer into what we are actually saying when we utter these words or think these thoughts.[/vc_column_text][mk_blockquote style=”line-style” font_family=”Oswald” font_type=”google” font_size_combat=”true” text_size=”20″ animation=”scale-up” align=”left” width=”1/1″ el_position=”first last”]In spiritual circles there can be this talk of how, “I’m so off my path.” or, “It’s taken me a long time to get back on my path.” This sentiment can also manifest in more coarse terms as, “I just need to get my shit together.” or “When is he going to get his shit together!?!?” I extend another invitation: let’s throw these worn out paradigms in the Holy Fire right now. And once that surface layer of doubt and fear has been transmuted, we can peer into what we are actually saying when we utter these words or think these thoughts.[/mk_blockquote][vc_column_text p_margin_bottom=”20″ width=”1/1″ el_position=”first last”]What we often find, when we choose to lean in and peer this deeply and lovingly, is that we’ve pieced together some idealized self. We’ve created an identity and a belief of, “If only”. “If only I could get my shit together and meditate every day.” “If only I could be as calm as my yoga teacher.” “If only I could stop eating sugar.” This belief tells us that there is a right way and there is a wrong way and unless we are doing the ‘right’ thing, we are off our path and are therefore irrelevant and valueless. It can be easy to gloss over this and focus on other things. But when we place our finger on the pulse of life, we can see that somewhere, everyone is dealing with this-the deep fear of being exactly what we are and ok with it!, of speaking our deepest truth- and then being ridiculed, rejected. And yet, very likely this has already happened and we survived. I know it has happened for me. I put myself out there in a very transparent way and it has happened that I’ve had people come forward with the intention to level me, tell me I’m a fraud, I’m fake, a big phony, ridiculous. But the thing about vulnerability is that it has a way of showing us what we are truly accountable to. And we are not accountable to the energy of judgement and shame. We are accountable to truth, to love, to our deepest self, to Spirit. And though I admit there can be a bit of a sting when someone is casting stones, it has only ever served to inspire me to shine the light of my heart even brighter. The judgement sent my way really didn’t change a single thing in how I show up in the world. We are living in a time that is calling for a new paradigm. A paradigm rooted in the beauty of your gift, the absolute certainty of your ability to heal, in the knowing that entering those dark caves does not render us worthless but renders us powerful and whole. I gotta be strait with you: it’s not the ice cream addiction that is the problem. But it’s the level at which you are meeting the energy of relationship itself. Who are you in that moment? What is the belief you are living out? What is trying to be felt, seen, heard, expressed? This level of inquiry and healing is the realm of Earth Medicine. We open up portals of vulnerability, within the strong container of love and protection. We mend the wound once and for all,  shift the needle of destiny, cut the cords of containment and fixation and restore harmony, integrity and ayni to the system. In this space there is no hurt too large or too small to be healed and brought right. You can find out more here about the sessions. Where are you ready to move beyond the wound story? Where are you carrying blocks to love? Where are you ready to go on the great adventure of living the life you actually came here to live? Where are you ready to feel more connected? There are no hazards ahead. And Spirit has your back.[/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row]

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